Designing a Well Lived Life: Checking In (June 2019)

It's a little early, but it's close enough to the end of the month that I'm checking in for June for my "Designing a Well-Lived Life" blogging. This is about making small changes during the year to make larger changes.

  • Administrative focus: This month felt like a real struggle. Part of it was settling in to the summer months, and part of it was not doing as many weekly reviews as I would like. I had days where I felt like i was going directly from work to something else with little down-time. I found myself wanting more distractions to alleviate the discomfort, and my lists grew to over 200 next actions and projects (139 next actions, 64 projects). That's way too much for me to handle, and I've been struggling taking them all in. Habits that I had before have disappeared. I've been trying to recommit myself to working through these lists but I'm more repulsed with them than I should be. Definitely been on the procrastination wagon.

  • Writing more: I've been editing my book slowly over the last month. Most of my writing has been on social media. I'm hoping to change that ratio, even if it's just through blog posts.

  • Design more: I listened to a few "Think Like a Game Designer" podcasts that got me inspired with a few designs, but have felt grown down (see "Administrative focus") so I haven't focused on this area.

  • Programming more: I've toyed with learning Rust a bit, but haven't given it the focus it needs.

  • Getting out of debt: Some large bills have slid us further into debt, but have been more focused on keeping our outtake as minimal as possible.

  • Physical Health: This is on auto-pilot. I haven't focused on this.

  • Mindfulness: I could go with the obvious joke that I haven't focused on this (thank you, tip your server), but I have been working with noticing when I am stressed or overloaded. The problem is my next reaction is "so what?". I had a lot of "so what?" moments this past month. My next course of action is to explore the "so what?" feelings and notice where they're coming from.

  • Deeper work: Bits and spurts. See "Mindfulness" above for some of the reasons.

This coming month I'm looking to focus outside of myself and find more of the "why" of what I am doing.