Designing a Well Lived Life: Checking In (July 2022)

Checking in for July for my "Designing a Well-Lived Life" blogging. This is about making small changes during the year to make larger changes.

  • Focus on health (exercise, eating, stress): I've been still working on getting my health up-to-snuff. It's been challenging for me because I'm tired more often than not, but I'm doing OK. I need to play drums more or something to get myself back to at least a bit of strength and help my neuropathy. I've also been working on moderating my stress by moderating my tasks and my energy.

  • Complete my game design projects to allow others to enjoy them: Making some progress wit this but not as much as I would like. I'm struggling with the layout and with making time for my projects. I think part of it is the fear that I'm going to fuck it up, but part of it is also that I've been tired. This is somewhere that I'm going to explore in the coming month when I have some downtime from chemo.

  • Do more non-work programming and chase my "white whales": Same as above. I've done a little bit with this, but finding my focus and what to focus on. There's several languages that I'm looking to get into (OCaml, C, and Scheme). I'm still thinking about what to do.

  • Be more mindful and focused in my day-to-day activities: I've been doing better with this. I worked through a Mindfulness course so this got a lot more attention. It's up to me on whether it will stick or not.

  • Add more joy into my life, either with games, reading, or other relaxing activities: I did manage to play a game of A Torch in the Dark, which I am planning on using for my own game systems. That was quite nice. I've also signed up for two online RPG games for Gencon. Doing my best to try to bring a little more fun into my day. Also been reading a bit here and there.

  • Allow myself to do more with less (distractions, acquisition, commitments, etc.): Erm, not so good with this. I'm finding myself dive back into old patterns of distractions, retail therapy, and the like. I think part of it is feeling a bit of a change coming in my life, and part of it is trying to reconfigure things (reworking my bookshelves to things that I'm actually interested in rather than things that I feel I should be interested in or were hold-overs from previous interests. I'm working on giving myself permission to let the things into my life have meaning, and let go of the things that no longer have meaning. Lots of distractions have also been chipping away at my head as well.

  • Notice when I'm overwhelmed and let go as much as I can: Been allowing myself more naps as I need them, and allowing myself to let go of commitments as much as I can. That's all I can do right now.

  • Declutter: See above.

  • Continue removing debt Still working on this as well. Things are looking up on this front for now.

Next month will be challenging with medical tests, prognosis, and determining next actions for my treatment. I''m really uncertain on what will happen, but I just need to give myself to accept what is coming up and adapt myself to those new realities as they are and not how I wish them to be.

Ever onward.