Today feels like the calm before the storm. Tomorrow I'll know more about whether or not I'll have surgery this week. I'm nervous for the outcome and feeling a bit overwhelmed. There are a lot of little things that I want to take care of before my surgery and a lot of other things that need to be done so I can feel like I can recuperate in peace. Things like winterizing the house, ensuring that things at work are sufficiently take care of... y'know, the usual "heading on vacation to a place where I have spotty cell coverage" sorts of things. I managed to clean the windows yesterday. It wasn't a major deal (we've suffered dirty windows for quite a while now) but for some reason it felt like something that needed doing. I also sprayed down our back porch. Again, not something that has bothered me before but seemed like the thing to do (especially since I had the spray Windex thingie on the hose already).
The most important piece of this, though, is being OK with what didn't get done. I can't get everything done in time. That's OK. I'm going to work on the most important things first. There's plenty of things that I might never ever get to; things that are important for other folks. That's OK. I'll do what I can and then lay down my sword until I am recovered. Until then, I shall do my best.