Checking in: 2023-04-10

Checking in: This past week my intention was to pace myself into my "retired" life. I allowed myself time to not try to pull in everything from my someday / maybe lists into my regular lists because I've done that before. I know my tendency is to overload my projects lists and burn myself out, so I'm trying to avoid doing all the things all at once.

I wrote yesterday about doing things that I'm passionate about. It's a little intimidating. Apparently I can overthink the things that I'm passionate about.

I did take some time this morning to do some decluttering in the basement. I think this is going to be an ongoing project. The strange thing is I'm starting to think of this in terms of an interactive storyworld where you're having an internal monologue with yourself about the things that you've left in your life. It's a little close to home but I can't deny that's where my head is right now.

For this week I'm setting the intention to narrow my focus on what is driving me and give that some space to play around. I'm not going to wait until I'm ready because I know how that will play out (I'm never ready because of the uncertainty around this). Much like my "retirement" I'm just going to have to face the unknown and just give myself space to explore and be uncomfortable for a bit.