Checking In: 2023-08-21

Checking in for 2023-08-21:

  • Today was filled to the brim with meetings; probably the most since I have had since I "retired". Granted, one of them was me mowing the lawn with my dad but I'm still counting it as a meeting.
  • My intention last week was to get to bed before midnight. I have to laugh at how badly I did with this. Truth be told I'm just bad at getting to bed at night. Part of it is that I really enjoy the night: the darkness and the quiet just relax me and when I'm relaxed my mind wants to go exploring. It's also the moment when my self-control is at its minimum. So I'll be more susceptible to viewing things online like Youtube videos, music, catalogs of old Atari books, and the like. Unfortunately with the chemo drugs that can really mess up my sleep cycle. I'll want to take naps during the day so at night I'm wide awake. Might need to play with this some more, but I think the right answer is to just listen to my body and give it permission from time-to-time.
  • This week I'm planning on working with "stick-to-it-iveness". I'm seeking to be more consistent with my practice, especially since I'm coming on the period where I'll be taking Lonsurf again. That drug really wipes me out.
  • Speaking of drugs, I finally got Alliance Rx (nee: Walgreen's) to accept my credit card details and ship me my medication. So that's a plus.
  • Still working on the Pepper&Carrot RPG. Made some pretty good progress with the layout (or at least getting my head around things for doing layout). I love LaTeX but boy howdy it can be unintentionally intimidating.
  • I did notice one thing last night before I went to bed. I got into a bit of a funk over my not playtesting one of my games or doing something "fun". But rather than just let myself be in a funk I turned it around in my head and questioned why I was feeling what I was feeling. I'm not going to say that I had fantastic answers or that I was somehow "cured" but it was a useful practice for helping me to unpack some things in my head. I think recognizing that I'm going into a funk and being open to think about what is going on can really help out. Trying to stop it isn't always going to work (and in some ways can prolong the funk) but being open and aware of what's going on and interrogating why that is can really help.

That's all for now. More as I know it.